Surviving Autism

I know there are different levels of autism and that most are impaired when it comes to their communication and socialization skills.  However, I still wish and I wish hard that my daughter could talk or even blurt words out even if she don’t mean to.

She now babbles a lot but they don’t mean a thing to me or to anyone who can hear her.  They could mean something to her and she is trying to say something but because of my limited grasp about how her brain functions I can’t understand her. I wish I could.

Of course I understand her hand gestures and hand leading, her pointing and mannerism.  We’ve been together since the day she was born and I could practically sense when she is hungry, sleepy, bored or whatever.

Maybe her disinterest or slow learning to communicate or talk is partly my fault.  I am not a chatterbox and when I am doing something I don’t want to be disturbed.  I wish I was a talkative fellow so I can chat about anything with her.

I wonder who or what could inspire her to talk?  I’ve taken her to a speech pathologist at the most expensive place you can ever imagine.  I was partly dismayed because she was assessed as still not capable of learning to imitate sounds because she is having a hard time manipulating her mouth.  She could have taught me ways I can manipulate her mouth but she didn’t but expect us to be back in six months with some radical development. I’m a mom not a miracle worker.

I really wish she can talk.  Please help me pray for this one because I believe once she is able to talk her progress will start to surge and she will become one of those high functioning autism who can at least take care of themselves and tell whatever happened to them during the day.